Monday, June 7, 2010

Be STILL....

Not something I'm good at! I've always been pretty active - I've learned how to relax and "veg" out at home, especially with young kids, but everything about me likes to be doing something - especially my mind. My mind can sometimes be in over drive of what is going on for the day, what NEEDS to be going on during the day, what SHOULD be going on during the day, what ISN'T going on during the day, etc., etc (i know, exhausting, right)?! Being STILL is something I've really been working on these past couple of weeks - and not when it comes to my busy schedule, but when it comes to my busy MIND! For those of you who are reading this and don't know, I was driving around a couple of weeks ago and at a red light, just nonchalantly put my hand on my neck - and felt a big bump around my thyroid. To make a detailed story short, after going to the doctor and having blood work and an ultrasound, I am now going on Wednesday for a needle biopsy. I understand that thyroid issues are pretty common, among women especially - and apparently they can be especially common postpartum, which makes me feel good about the results of the biopsy. HOWEVER, that mind of mine still wants to work in over drive :-) It's natural .... I don't think I'm this rare case or anything - and as common as a mass on your thyroid MAY be, it's not common to me. What amazes me about trials in life are the opportunities to learn and grow from them. I think what has already been brought to my attention in the past couple of weeks as I've had different tests run and just played the "waiting" game (which, really .... who LIKES to wait) is the importance of memorized scripture. Almost immediately - and then throughout the past couple of weeks, I have constantly had the following going through my head:

Ex. 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be STILL"
Ps. 46:10 "Be STILL and know that I am God"
Phil 4:6, "Do not be anxious about anything (aka. keep your mind STILL), but pray about EVERYTHING"

These were the first verses that started rushing through my head ..... I could share several more about God being in control and trusting Him, but I realized that these verses came to me from memorization I did while growing up! Verses that immediately brought me comfort, as I was a little freaked out, that I had learned YEARS ago. It made me wonder why I don't commit to memorizing scripture as much NOW?! I mean, studying the Word is great - it's necessary - but I also think that I need to keep memorizing scripture, so that I do have those words hidden in my heart and can really grab on to them in my mind when my Bible maybe isn't within reach (like, when I'm driving and feel a huge mass on my neck) :-) The Lord uses all life experiences for some purpose. I know that through this trial right now, He is drawing me closer to Him and reminding me that life DOES get busy - yes, BUT that I need to be STILL sometimes - on so many different levels .... both in my schedule (so that I'm making time for Him) - and especially with my MIND.
So, for those of you reading, I would just ask that you pray that I get some good results following my biopsy on Wednesday. I pray that the results would be benign and that medication could be used to shrink the mass as opposed to surgery (really, really don't want surgery). My blood work showed that my thyroid levels are borderline high, so I will probably have to start taking some type of medication to have that monitored, but ultimately, I am taking it one appointment at a time - and thankful for any prayers offered up. Thanks to all my prayer warriors out there!


Rachel said...

Allison, you know I had thyroid cancer in 2007 right? I've been in remission since. Please let me know if there's anything you need, I'll private message you my # incase you wanna call to chat about it.

Heather said...

Allsion, Just thinking of you. Prayed several times for you today and will be tomorrow as well. - hugs

Jill said...

I will be praying for you as you get your results. How long will it be before you get them? I will be praying that you will be "STILL" and know that He is God. What a great reminder to all of us about trusting in God to help us get through the waiting times in our lives!